Purpose

Over the years after I lost my previous partner, I felt lost. Just drifting through my life without any true meaning. I definitely had romantic interests and did try to pursue those over the years to not much success.

I am a bit of a people pleaser. I've found that i get the most satisfaction whenever I am able to help someone feel happy or comfortable, especially the people I love dearly.

Recently, I had a call with a close friend of mine, and we were chatting, and then where we stood as friends came up. They answered, but I could tell there was more to it than just what they told me. So I made the decision to give them a little push and to help them say what they wanted to say. They were very flustered (for like 45 minutes), but eventually they admitted that they had a crush on me since we met. I admitted to them that I had a crush on them too for a similar amount of time. After a much needed release of that weight on both sides of the call, I eventually asked if they join me and explore those feelings together as partners. They said yes!

It hasn't been very long since that conversation, but I haven't felt this good in a very long time. I finally feel like I am getting back on track in my life. I got a job after 8 months of unemployment, I got a partner who I love very much, and I am slowly starting to process all of my unprocessed emotions in a way that will last much longer than what I used to do.

I also plan on posting here more. I have a few drafts I want to finish at some point.