Mortem

I have a special relationship with Death...or at least, a very one-sided one.

I don't know if it's anything I did in particular that made them feel like I deserved the losses I have accrued over the years, but god damn they want to see me suffer.

Over the last few nights, I have been plagued with the feeling that something is wrong. Whenever I reach out on the astral plane, there's someone not responding, and its making me anxious, and angry with myself for not being home to take care of my loved ones.

I will be back home tomorrow, hopefully everything is okay and that what I feel was just a side effect of being on a large boat with thousands of other people.

but that doesn't make me feel any better, that doesn't make that feeling go away.

I'm scared, and don't know what to do with myself.